done ,

yo fo-shizzle readers ,
im done blogging .
dnt really find the point of having a blog .
anyways , taaaa !

Here's about a girl and her mum .

I know a blog is where im suppose to express everything i feel , but apparently , i really can't . here's why .
There's this girl , lets refer her as A .
A calls her friends to express her emotions as their friends won't change their impression on her as they love her for the way she is . they will just listen and be there and they know that i dnt want advice , i just need someone to listen .
So , A can't bare with it anymore cause she thinks its time to talk to her mum bout all her problems .
But when she does , her mum starts to react to what she says eventhough they kinda made a deal that she won't react .
so , now , A's outta her mind , she doesnt know how she can express her feeling .
In the end , she runs upstairs and continues banging her head to the wall .
Crying before bed and in the toilet , keeping it all in her heart , wishing that there was another way for things to get better .
Lets just refer A is me :(

Rayarayarayaraya !

Its the time of the year where its raya again ! :D
It was soooo awesome !
Afiq and luqman joined in again this year (:
Weeeee ~
kay , break time's off , gotta go !
byeeee .

The differences between two buddies

Hey guys , ive met two great guy friends in my life , the ones that i spend everyday with and never bored of them eventhough it sucks at times .
But there's a difference between them 2 , and when i mean them is Muhammad Nazmi bin Abdul Rahman ( Mamat ) and Amir Firdaus Mustafa Kamal .
Similarities :
- both are crazy at times , means i go crazy with them
- both excel in studies
- both are guys .
- both are the same age
- both are into futsal
And the differences ? MAJOR !
- Nazmi is like " you sure taklih buatnyer your exams " and Amir goes like " alaaa , you can do it nyer , i just know it "
- Nazmi is like " ahh , malas ahhh " , Amir's like " yeaaah , sure "
- Mamat's a family friend while Amir's not
- Mamat speaks english most of the time while Amir speaks malay most of the time
- Mamat is specialised with Science subjects while Amir's specialised on Reading Subjects
- Mamat's been my friend for as long as i can remember while Amir's just bout 4 months i think
- Amir is a sprinter while Mamat doesnt run
- Amir's the supportive kindoffriend and Mamat's the kind where he goes supportive the other way round like " whats the point you buat nieee ? " but sometimes , he uses the sentences on the wrong purposes
- Mamat goes sarcastic almost all the time while Amir doesnt .
- Mamat doesnt has a bad history while Amir does .
- Mamat has always been there for the past 10 years , i think , and Amir's just 4 months
- Mamat goes serious only when i ask him to go seriously , seriously
- Nazmi hasnt seen me cry as often as Amir has ( this is cause i can't imagine how Nazmi would act , probably say like " ngadanyer nak nangis )
- I fight with Nazmi more often than i do with Amir
- Me and Nazmi have more things in common than me and Amir
- Nazmi swears wayyyyy more than Amir does
CONCLUSION
- They're great amazing friends in my life eventhough they have their differences and gets on my nerves at times . but hey , no one's perfect (:
Thanks guys for making may days happy :D wish you guys could be close friends with each other too .

Rayarayarayafever !

Raya this year should be amazing for :
i . Uncle Majid and Family are coming to town on the 16th !
ii . Tradition of Afiq and Luqman in Malaysia are still going on the 19th !
iii . First day of raya , celebrate raya puaspuas ! :DDD
Hell yeah can't wait for the feast ! Andddd , malam ada open house ! so come over la hubbies and hunnnies !

All you girls go crazy right now .. touch !

Haha , been crazy with trials next week , isnt that fast ? It just ended now there's another one .
Woke up at 3 , then planned to study , but instead started looking into books at 4.30 .

But here's about friends . I used to talk , share all my problems , whatsoever tears fall . But its been quite sometime where Ive been listening to others instead . Amazingly .
And these days , people have been telling me love stories .
I told the witch doctor i was inlove with you , i told the witch doctor you didnt love me too , and then the witch doctor he told me what to do ! (:
Hahahaha , so im kinda the witch doctor in the last sentence .
Conclusion of this thing called love for ....
GIRLS : Let the guy go for you . If you like him , and not so sure if he likes you , just fall back . If he likes you , he'd do anything for you . You cant force feelings or seduce a guy just to get him . haha , obviously .
GUYS : Just go for them , girls dont bite .

Anyways , here I am thinking love isnt everything . I mean , id rather keep a crush as a goodfriend than loose him as a lover . Whatsoeverthingitis , love is tooooo complicated for me to handle now . Screw whatsoeverlovecrap till PMR ends . A month je left kayyy ? And school ends in another 2 years , 2 YEARS je .

Time passes by the wind . No matter what , family first . Friends are there for you if you fallback into pieces , but they're not there for you forever . No such thing as BFF's . The only thing thats obvious about my future , is the fact that my family's gonna be there . I don't know what friends i might have , what i might work as , what husband i might get , but i know who are the ones ive loved forever .

I gotta thank god for giving me such a great family .

A MUM that wears her tudung senget to the bazaar with sunnies pretending to be a rocker . A DAD that practically shuffles and belly dances . A SISTER that's very wise yet funny . A BROTHER that cares for me a lot , yet very supporting and exciting . Another SISTER that I can go crazy with and actually call a permanent soulmate , a twin eventhough she's older and more hot tempered . hehe .

No relationships are forever , no friendships are forever .
The only ship thats never gonna sink is , familyship . Wonder why they don't have that in the dictionary . haha . pfft , eniza , you're so lame .

Arrrrgh !

That wasnt a pirate sound , instead a sound where stress is slotting into my mind !
Im left with 6 weeks !

Do you know how short that is ?!?!?!
Im kinda glad that PMR's coming to an end , but at the same time , id rather gain more time to study then have some really awesome satiesfied feeling where i did the best i could
One week , id be pushing the whole time studying , another week spent relaxing cause i pushed too hard that my brain's gone dead -.-
maybe i should start praying for the spirit to study again . hehe .
Anyways, gotta go !
Study again . haih . just 6 weeks , just 6 weeks , hunnieh !
Taaaaaaaaa .